Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Such a Warrior



      Such a Warrior
Lu Xun 1925
Tr. Huiwen Zhang 2012
            There has to be such a sort of warrior —
 No longer ignorant as African natives who nonetheless bear shiny rifles; nor beaten as the Chinese Green Troops who nonetheless wear pistols.  He has no armor that prays to cow-hide and scrap-iron for help; he has only himself, but seizing what barbarians use: a single-throw spear.
            He walks into a formation of nothingness, where all that encounter him face him with the same nod.  He is aware that this nod is precisely the enemy’s weapon, a weapon that kills without spilling blood; numerous warriors have been nullified here, just the same as cannon balls: they render the brave unable to engage their power.
            Above those heads is every kind of banner, embroidered with every form of grand title: philanthropist, scholar, writer, elder, youth, nobleman, gentleman… Beneath those heads is every form of garment, embroidered with every style of grand pattern: knowledge, virtue, national legacy, public opinion, logic, justice, Eastern civilization…
But he hoists the spear.
            They all vow in the same voice that their hearts are in the center of their chests, unlike the rest of left-side-hearted humankind.  They all place on their chests a heart-protecting bronze mirror, in order to testify their firm faith that the heart is in the center of the chest.
            But he hoists the spear.
            He smiles, aims to the side for a single throw that does strike right into the den of their hearts.
            All collapse to the ground; yet left behind is only a garment, inside of which, nothingness.  The thing of nothingness has fled away in triumph, for at this moment the warrior stands convicted of slaughtering the philanthropists and their like.
            But he hoists the spear.
            He walks in vast strides through the formation of nothingness, encountering anew the same nod, every kind of banner, every form of garment…
            But he hoists the spear.
            He, after all, ages, wilts, and perishes in the formation of nothingness.  He, after all, is no longer a warrior.  The thing of nothingness, however, triumphant.
            Under such circumstances, no one hears the war cry: peace.
            Peace...
            But he hoists the spear!

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

The Shadow’s Farewell (update 1119)



The Shadow’s Farewell
Lu Xun, 9/24/1924
Tr. Huiwen Zhang, 11/21/2012, updated 11/19/2014

When in sleep the time comes that man no longer knows the time, there will be a shadow coming to bid farewell, saying—

If there is that which I do not fancy in Heaven, I am unwilling to go; if there is that which I do not fancy in Hell, I am unwilling to go; if there is that which I do not fancy in your future Golden World, I am unwilling to go.
Yet you are that which I do not fancy.
Friend, I no longer want to follow you, I am unwilling to stay.
I am unwilling!
Woe World Woe World—I am unwilling, I would rather wander across the free-falling ground.

              I am but a shadow, wanting to bid you farewell and drown in darkness.  Yet darkness again will engulf me, yet sunlight again will make me fade away.
Yet I am unwilling to wander between light and dark, I would rather drown in darkness.

Yet I in the end wander between light and dark; I know not whether it is dusk or dawn.  I but raise an ashen-black hand for now as if to empty a glass of wine.  When the time comes that I no longer know the time, I will venture far alone.
Woe World Woe World—if it were dusk, black night would surely come to drown me, or I would be faded away by white day, if it were dawn.
Friend, the time is near.
I will dive into darkness and wander across the free-falling ground.
You are still expecting my farewell gift.  What on earth can I bestow?  Nothing, or the usual dark and void, nothing more.  But I want to be only the dark, so I may fade away in your white day; I want to be only the void, so I shall never occupy the ground of your heart.

I want it this way, friend—
I am venturing far alone, neither with you, nor with other shadows in darkness.  Only I am drowned in darkness; the world wholly belongs to me.


Tuesday, November 18, 2014

The Shadow’s Farewell (update 2014)




The Shadow’s Farewell
Lu Xun, 9/24/1924
Tr. Huiwen Zhang, 11/21/2012, updated 11/17/2014

When in sleep the time comes that man no longer knows the time, there will be a shadow coming to bid farewell, saying—

If there is that which I do not fancy in Heaven, I am unwilling to go; if there is that which I do not fancy in Hell, I am unwilling to go; if there is that which I do not fancy in your future Golden World, I am unwilling to go.
Yet you are that which I do not fancy.
Friend, I no longer want to follow you, I am unwilling to stay.
I am unwilling!
Woo-hu-woo-hu, I am unwilling, I would rather wander on the ever-receding ground.

             I am but a shadow, wanting to bid you farewell and drown in darkness.  Yet darkness again will engulf me, yet sunlight again will make me fade away.
Yet I am unwilling to wander between light and dark, I would rather drown in darkness.

Yet I in the end wander between light and dark, I know not whether it is dusk or dawn.  I but raise an ashen-black hand for now as if to empty a glass of wine.  When the time comes that I no longer know the time, I will venture far alone.
Woo-hu-woo-hu, if it were dusk, black night would surely come to drown me, or I would be faded away by white day, if it were dawn.

Friend, the time is near.
I will dive into darkness and wander on the ever-receding ground.
You are still expecting my farewell gift.  What on earth can I bestow?  Nothing, or no more than the dark and the void as usual.  But I want to be only the dark, so I may fade away in your white day; I want to be only the void, so I shall never occupy the ground of your heart.

I want it this way, friend—
I am venturing far alone, neither with you, nor with other shadows in darkness.  Only I am drowned in darkness; the world belongs to me, myself, wholly.